Update: This bad boy only lasted 2 full days. I woke up with a super bad headache on the second day and figured I’d better stop. Still want to go the full 5 days though.
I’ve been feeling really lazy, unproductive, and unhealthy lately. It doesn’t help that my job allows requires me (yeah, boo-hoo, I know) to sit down 100% of the time to be productive. But the fact that my office got a vending machine a month or so ago and I’ve been living off of a steady diet of Mountain Dew & Gardettos ever since does nothing to improve my chances of living a healthy life. So just to stick it to myself and to prove to myself that I’m not a worthless piece of fat, lazy junk, I’m going to go without food for 5 days in a row. I’ve been interested to see what going 20+ days would be like, so maybe I’ll end up going more. This (5 day fast) may seem like a big deal, but it’s really not going to be that bad.
I’ve gone 3 days without food before, and two of those days were without food and water. I did it just to prove a point to myself, and I guess that’s why I’m doing it again. On the third day I was no longer really even very hungry. Just felt a bit weak. Going without food is actually a real cool experience both physically and mentally. It’s funny to realize just how much time you spend thinking about food subconsciously. And cutting off that impulse to eat rabidly is, in a weird way, quite liberating.
Something interesting I’ve noticed about myself is that when I’m low on sleep, and perhaps even a bit hungry, my mind is more sharp and I react more quickly. It’s almost as if I don’t have the energy to be lazy. haha. Try to explain that one. Another possible explanation is because when I’m well fed and well rested, I have the energy to concern myself with stupid stuff such as what people think about me and it slows down my mental processes. Stupid anxiety. Having anxiety and self conscious thoughts subconsciously is like having some sort of malware or spyware running in the background of your computer that drains your system resources. Pisses me off, because I’ve realized that I’m a real anxious person.
My life feels super out of control for some reason right now and I guess fasting – controlling what I ingest physically – is one way of proving to myself that I have control over at least one aspect of my life.
Anyways, I’m a born skeptic and I commonly think of health weirdos and nutritionists as loony tunes; so if you think I’m up in the night for randomly doing this, I understand, but if you’re interested to learn more about fasting, this page is at least mildly interesting if you end up believing even 25% of it.